Well...I'm in that spot again! Funny thing is...this time I'm aware of it...but nonetheless...still watching it happen almost willingly!...kinda eery! I've hit a major bump in my road...I've lost 40lbs so far..(out of the 70 totall I have to lose), and I'm on my way back up! Gained 5 this month so far...with no end in sight!
I've gained and lost this damn 70 lbs 4 times...this 5th time was supposed to be the last "cycle"...but apparently I'm just not ready! I'm feeling loathing, contempt, failure...you name it...but I'm continuing down the wrong path. I can't, or maybe won't stop myself!
I need to graciously bow out of the competition before I humiliate myself with the weigh-in photos! Good luck to all...I will continue to read your blogs...and maybe even add one of my own in there when...and if...I can get things going again!
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PULL UP! PULL UP!
ReplyDeleteStop the spiral right now!
You NEED to have some self love lady. You need to work on knowing that you are worth it, that you deserve health and happiness and fitness. You control your business world with such flair and responsibility and dedication and devotion. Don't you think you're worth at least that much commitment to yourself? You CAN do this, and I'm right here beside you. Together we WILL get fit and healthy. Start the Gabriel Method again at night. Start visualizations. Start implementing all that you know, but do so willingly, happily knowing it's for your best interest, and do it with a view to enjoying life. You are a vibrant strong woman. Be true to YOU!
Love you babe
I've decided this is an April Fools joke!! YOU are too important and strong to give up on yourself. You can push past this. You can take control! You are JACQUI freakin PITBULL freakin THE BOMB DIGGIDY!! You got this girl. You are stronger than the food and the stress... YOU ROCK!
ReplyDeletePS IDC if you don't post pics this month... just make sure to post a weight. YOU GOT THIS GIRL!!
Thanks so much guys! I really wish it were an April Fools joke...if it is...then the joke's on me right?
ReplyDeleteJust reading your responses has brought tears to my eyes. Partly with disbelief that you guys care so much, and part because I feel like since I've been on this site I've been nothing but burdomsome with my roller coaster ways!
I think I'm my own worst enemy! You guys are right...I do deserve this...I do deserve health and happiness...I can't let myself gain back everything I've worked sooooo hard to lose! I've gotta get a grip...and soon! I will post my weight...just no pics...cuz I know I won't be in the running for cash anyways.,..so it won't matter! I wish you guys lived closer...we could go for a long walk in the beautiful weather, and just talk, and talk, and talk, till I got it thu my thick skull that I'm worth it!!
JACQUELINE!!!!! NO! I won't accept that. I'm not even a part of this competition but I'm still not accepting that. I count on you and so do so many others. We need you just as much as you need us. Even if you don't do the comp with the photo's who cares but please don't give up on your journey. This is a crossroads...are you going to take the easy way out and feel all woe is me? Or are you going to buckle down and bash through the barriers head first?! I know this month has been tough on you but don't use it as an excuse to give up. 5 lbs who cares!!! You can lose that by upping your water and starting to get into this again.
ReplyDeleteI've been there. I've given up too I lost 50 out of 80 lbs once before and you know what I always regret getting so close to goal and not just doing it. I can't let you do this too. Don't you want to feel good about you? Maybe not right now but I bet you will. Just please you don't have to jump in head first and do everything just change one thing at a time. It doesn't have to be extreme it could be just upping that water for now and then next week we can work on something else.
I'm going to bug you so much because I care :) I'm going to text you now to drink your water.
Know that you are worth this. Your family knows it...we all know it...now it's time for you to know it.
Love you!!!
Stop this ladies!!! You're making me cry! I think I'm going crazy! I'd say PMS...but I haven't had that since I was 32! Ok...I drank the water...and NO I WON'T GIVE UP!!!! Thanks for all your support...I will lose this weight...I will win...I will, will, will do this damn thing!!!
ReplyDeleteDon't dont' don't. Stay in the comp. We love you. A slip doesn't mean you should give up. I am glad to see you changed your attitude. You are fabulous!!!
ReplyDeleteI think you are being your own worst enemy too! There is no reason to quit from a little setback...and 5 pounds is a little setback, especially compared to the fantastic 40 you have lost.
ReplyDeleteWeight loss is a process, not a direct plummet, and sometimes it bobbles a little. This month I am up 3 pounds myself from the last weigh in, but I know I just need to regroup, allow myself some wiggle room, and then redirect!
Don't be so hard on yourself!!! Forgive yourself, allow your body to adjust, and get yourself going again instead of just giving up!
You are not failing!!!
Kick it in gear girl...I think March was an awful month and now it's gone out the window. I too have had my own personal struggle this month with if i can really do this or not....Hang on you have a lot of us pulling for you. This is your time!!!!
ReplyDeleteGoodness....after all this incredible support, I can't give up! I never realised how much support I really have! I was feeling terrible about whining and blogging about my feelings, but now I think I'm glad I did! I honestly think I would have given up (I know,..a terrible thing to say), but it's true! Thanks to all you guys...I'm in! I know I won't win...but really....I already have! I've made lifelong friends that are gonna be by my side through this whole journey! Just a little press of the "on" button of my computer away!! THANKS GUYS!
ReplyDeleteI'm hoping that you're sticking with your last comment and "giving up" on THE IDEA of giving up on yourself and NOT giving up on yourself!!! Winning this competition is the least important part of the whole thing. It’s not about the medal at the end of the race it's about making it across the finish line! This is a marathon, not a sprint and did you know that some people WALK marathons? Well they do!!!
ReplyDeleteUnderstand that we're here to support you and cheer for you REGARDLESS Of the number you throw up at the end of the month.
You have come so far and you will have victory over your rollercoaster!!! Dig in your heels and press through. Every back slide brings you closer to the truth. Every time you realize you're headed in the wrong direction will bring you closer to your goal. i know that doesn't make a lot of sense but EVERY time you realize you're going the wrong direction and turn around you get stronger. Every time you fall but then pick yourself back up you get stronger! Each time a setback happens you will realize sooner, and dig in harder! You didn't get here in 3 months and you won't get out in 3 either.
But you can, you will, YOU MUST...
KEEP ON FIGHTING!!!
You are worth it! You are powerful and beautiful and SO AMAZING!!! None of us will give up on you so you can't either! ;0)